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It's about time I feel comfortable in my own skin. I'm tired of swaying back and forth between moments of unabashed confidence and bouts of depression-bordering insecurity. And yet...
Here I am again with some mildly savory Chinese take-out and a relentless stream of unfocused consciousness. I should be completing overdue preparations for tomorrow's 7a-11p workday, or at least getting some shut-eye, but I find myself too confused to do either.

I can't seem to shake this feeling of dissatisfaction. I'm doubting all the choices I've made recently. Is this where I want to be? Even if I continue on to my doctorate.. then what? Will I finally be content?

On the tail end of an incredible journey to some of the most romantic places in Spain and Italy, all I wanted was a good man to share in the ride.. but when I was presented with one, all I could see were his superficial faults.

That of course left me texting an ex, who I believed to be a friend, who turned out to really just be an ex, with some trite weekend-plans-invitation-provoking message.. there was no response this time. I guess he was busy.. *tear*

Having found the trigger for this downward spiral, I'm still left wondering when if ever I'll encounter 'that special someone' who makes my heart skip a beat.. or just be happy without. I'm clearly not built for the latter, so with the start of a new school year and the end of a good friend's single-dom, here's to taking some leaps of Faith~!